Still Unbearable

These past five months have been a tumultuous roller coaster of emotions. I knew my TomTom was sick but never realized the grave severity of it. It happened so fast and I feel we were all cheated and it is so unfair. My heart still hurts for the loss his family, girlfriend and all of his friends endured. My other half who was Tom's best friend/"brother from another" is deeply affected and devastated and probably will forever be broken by this. This is not a loss one gets over. I know the saying "with time, the pain will subside." I don't think that saying holds truth. We learn to move on and live without our loved ones in our life, but I think the more time goes on, sometimes the more painful it becomes. I think of him and it hurts; I hear songs on the radio that remind me of him and I can either smile or cry. I think of the future, and knowing Tom won't be in it really upsets me. But, I know he is out of pain, not suffering anymore, and believe he is in a better place. I know he is not physically here, but spiritually he is. <3